My Horrific Experiences with Certain Medicare Doctors

This article, covers spiritual aspects regarding doctors who lose their compassion for patients, which I believe to be brought about at least to some degree by the enemy of mankind, Satan’s kingdom of hindering spirits.

Due to my having a lung disease problem, that has been called “asthma” by some Medicare doctors, “COPD” by others, possible “Pulmonary Hypertension” by some and “Restrictive Lung Disease” by yet others, it left me for years, wanting to know the true source of the problem. Everything has a ’cause and effect’ but these doctors who all had my very clear ‘Pulmonary Functions Tests’ to look at, showing 20 points drop in my most important lung functions, within a 4 to 5 year period. Example: FEV1 – a major test, went from being in the mid 80 points in year 2012 to a 20 point drop in the mid 60 points by year 2016. Symptoms-only are what took me to a pulmonologist in 2012 but my test ranges were normal back then. The same is true of the FVC – a 20 point drop in four years. The ratio of these two of course is normal (something doctors also highly consider) because they are both at the same low number, causing a normal ratio. {NOTE: All doctors are not bad; many are excellent, so if you’re a medical professional please remember my stating this as you read the remainder of this article.}
It’s like saying how do I get to 65% using two numbers? Well, you take 65 plus 65 which equals 130. You then divide that number by 2 and it equals 65 – that’s 100% of the number you wanted to arrive at. I had a doctor who only a few days ago, tell me that even with my main lung function numbers being mid 60% on FEV1 and FVC (varies from 65 to 67 depending on the PFT lab used), that because the ratio of the 2 together is normal, all is well. This is absolutely not true because a normal ratio between the two does not take away from the fact that the FEV1 and FVC, each separately, have dropped to a level that normally would represent “COPD stage 2”. With the ratio between the two being normal, this does in fact rule out COPD but at the same time is highly indicative of restrictive lung disease (some forms are deadly within 5 years of diagnosis). One PFT I had done at a doctors office had a computer-generated report/analysis, which stated “Restrictive Disease – Lung age 85”, which of course concerned me but my doctor at this office (different city we lived in when my daughter was in college) was great. I liked him very much and he said “Those analysis-readouts are not set in stone, so don’t lose any sleep over it.” However, like any normal person, I have suffered anxiety and depression ever since but I cope with it quite well with God’s help.
In fact there is a computer generated graph of my flow volume loop that shows an abnormal flattening also indicating a restrictive lungs pattern. I have an upper right lobe nodule with stable scarring around it but my lungs (plural) have either Atelectasis in them (areas of collapsed lung) or Scarring. I do have what I was told were minor heart problems, that could contribute to my breathing problem but has this possible connection been investigated? No, it has not…not even with my going to a pulmonologists, who sloughed me off and would not perform the test that I literally set the appointment for and confirmed with them by phone, before the office visit that I needed that specific test. I was supposed to get the test and there was no misunderstanding regarding my need for it but it still was not performed.
Because of these type battles with doctors, which should never occur, I have become a bit testy with some of them. Never with my PCP (regular Doctor) because he embodies what a true doctor should be and he is, I will guess, about 60 years of age. In my opinion, if a doctor has not burned out by his 40s, he is not a ‘career man only’ but one who actually cares about people and the oath taken by him is also ‘his calling’. The dilemma we also have in our USA nation, is a doctor shortage. This doubles-down on the difficulty in getting proper medical care because overbooked, continually-rushed doctors are more apt to become one of the burnout statistics. The WebMD online site states “Half (50%) of family doctors across all age categories said they had burnout in the 2015 report, up from 43% in 2013”.  If one looks at 2017 statistics, they are almost certainly higher than these numbers.
I have decided simply to live the best I can and let doctors slough me off whenever they like. When something gets bad enough, they’ll simply put me in ICU and I will die at a time of God’s choosing. I have opted out of artificial life support and even resuscitation if it is obvious that being brought back to life means more suffering for me. This may sound morbid to some readers, however, the battles with doctors over the years has done as much damage to my health as anything else. I’m a burn out statistic from the other side of the coin; as a patient. When you have constant pain and other symptoms, including not being able to breath properly, you simply don’t have the strength to battle doctor burn out. I will of course keep doing what my regular PCP asks me to do for the sake of my health. However, I will not battle specialists any longer, in attempt to get them to do the right thing. I ask God that he take them into his hands for the good or bad they do and I’ll just continue to live on. That’s really the best thing I can do after all that has transpired in the past. There’s nothing better than God fighting my battles; He’s far better at it than I am.
I will be posting a letter following this article, as a separate entry, that will be self-explanatory (I hope). It is in regard to my most recent but last battle with a specialist and/or a regular MD (I’ve also had to change PCPs for same reasons in the past). So, look for that posting that will likely appear above this article, since it will be a newer one. It is basically my response to this particular doctor writing a letter to me saying he no longer wanted me as a patient. Did I do something outrageous to make him slough me off completely? No, my wife was with me at both of my visits with him, she said I was straightforward at times but never raised my voice and certainly never threatened him. It was because I, as a patient suggested that certain things should be looked into.
He felt that by my doing this, I was disrespecting him as a doctor. I did also relate to him a negative experience I had with a cardiologist, so that he would suggest a different one. He said he already had planned to refer me to a colleague of his who is a cardiologist but this will now never happen. As I said before it is in God’s hands now, so I will simply let Him handle it from here. I will only do those more simple things, that I know are my duty to do (e.g. take meds my PCP prescribes and live as healthy as possible). Again, look for my next article – my letter of reply to a doctor who sloughed me off in writing. It contains some interesting information that most patients are unaware of but that they should be aware of!


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